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31 May 2012 @ 08:01 pm
Trace Decay  
I'm just so tired these days. Tomorrow is the last day of university, this semester. I don't think I've ever needed it as much.

I like to think that I thrive under pressure. Like every other person out there I wait until the last second to do something, just to have that motivation, have the deadline close, breathing down my neck, to force me to do something. To do my best.
Maybe I just never had quite this much to do. 
I've finally realised the stress of pushing something further away, doing it last minute and then having to do five other things at the same time. On my spare days all I've wanted to do is sleep. 
Does anyone here go by the myers-briggs personality types? I'm almost always INFJ, that's what I think of myself as. And sometimes we just get sick of seeing people. I've had days where I just want to shut myself inside my room and stare at the computer screen, maybe brew some coffee but to avoid people I stand in my doorway, listening so that there's no-one already in the kitchen.

I actually feel good, most of the time. I've been doing good in school, I got the result from Amsterdam and had scored an 8 (out of 10) on my courses. Ethnology grew as a subject, I didn't like it at all in the beginning, but it has taught me so much. I just wish the schedule could have been planned better. Everything just exploded post-easter. 

Next semester I'll be writing my bachelor thesis in Art History. I don't know what's next, beyond that. I want to work but I also want to do a Master - I just don't now what kind or where, preferably abroad. And maybe curatorship. 

Oh, and I've been elected president of Pictura, our student gallery. I'm going to have to plan better next year.

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